Can't grasp? Ha. I refuse to believe in a God who takes innocents when Satan doesn't. You have no proof whatsoever that there is a God. Just as I have no proof there isn't. You can feel good about yourself all you want for feeling I "can't grasp" the concept of a malevolent God who judges innocents (and takes them as "sacrifices") when his darkest counterpart does not. No one can help that you're so miserable you're gonna marry a man who doesn't even want to look at you, either, but would rather look at other women instead. I pity you. I really do. My Gods I can't take this anymore. For someone who isn't very happy with their life, I assume you have more to worry about than replying to me. My point is now, you literally hate your life and can't even please your soon to be husband. Your self esteem is so, so low. I am very happy and please my husband every single day. Maybe you should try doing something that would please yours, then he wouldn't tell you to promptly fuck off.