An observation of socialists on this subreddit

I'll be honest, I'm fairly new to communism/socialism. I was always politically/economically interested and in HS from '10-'14 I spent plenty of time learning about the world around me and how it operates as I came of age. This left me confused and frustrated. I saw so much wrong with the world. So much I wanted to change and so little recourse.

I voted blindly in midterms for Democrats, despite disliking Obama because of his post recession economic policy and foreign policy. Yeah, yeah he was a good speaker. The internet was weird at that time. Before HS my best friends and I spent a lot of time learning various conspiracies that were rumored and various shady US Intel programs. Well enter in the rise of the alt-right I didn't realize because my worldview was still so small in scope. I was back into conspiracies, and in hindsight, dangerously close to falling into alt right/fash mindset. I didn't know of leftism. I believed the things they taught me in school about communism, which wasn't even leftism in my mind. I was still America-centric.

'15 rolls around I'm following the upcoming elections in the states. My brother and I suddenly start scouring the past of a particular senator, Vermont's Bernard Sanders. We have our eyes opened to the leftwing. At this time I'm very oblivious and ignorant to what leftism really is. Thinking it's taxing the rich and providing for the poor. Social democracy I believe. Trump & Bernie both have a populist tone. I was extremely enthused by Bernie, and he lost which was deflating as a kid. (I feel much more mature now.)

Well as election season rolls into the general I was actually on the Trump train, pure ignorance. It's shameful to admit honestly. I wasn't on it so far as to vote for him, I voted 3rd party, Libertarian, that shows how little I still understood about actual economic theory. The anti-Hillary prop got to me as well, I was a heavy FB user at the time. So, once the general had come I felt extremely disillusioned and within weeks of a Trump presidency I lost any positive thought I had of him and quickly realized "Drain the Swamp" was BS rhetoric. I was extremely naive, probably still am to a lesser extent. Corruption of the govt wasn't something I viewed as a product of capitalism then, and was a big issue for me. I tuned all of it out and gave up on wanting to ever be involved in activism or politics which was/is a dream of mine. Lasted until late 2017.

Around this time I discovered Richard Wolff. That's pretty much where my story begins. From Wolff I started looking further into Marxism, which led me to all sorts of avenues focused on communism. It was beautiful to learn about these things without all of that capitalist BS behind it. Even if you're a capitalist, I think it's critical to forming opinions, because well it's critical of capitalism. I also grew a lot personally around this time. Wolff actually rekindled my aspirations for teaching.

My arguments are probably very ideological focused at times. I have a hard time conceded points that I understand have a counter, but I dont understand. This is can lead me into dogmatic responses or logical fallacies. I'm still trying to grow, especially as a socialist/communist. I notice what you said on this sub, and I feel like it's a lot less mature than other subs that aren't for debate, but learning about capitalism/communism. I'm not very adept at taking theory and applying it to existing policy to find some solution based on my ideology, without making a very generalized view. I think it's because I need to read more, better understand Materialism, and change my thinking from general to precise. Well read and knowledgeable people can typically form and merge ideas with information they have that's relevant to the issue at hand. I feel I have a lot more to learn about economics/politcs/culture and those subjects history. I try not to get too into debate on this sub and follow debates to help refine my own and find subjects to learn about. When I do though, I'll admit that what you said about socialists applies pretty well to me. I'll save my debate for later on when it can be used properly, not ideology based, and rooted in real world problems.

TLDR; I have only recently developed my views on political economics and they aren't very refined. I admit that when I do debate here, which I try to avoid in favor of absorbing the debates, I act as described. I'll work to correct this, and hopefully others in the sub are interested in doing so too.

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