To hear your heart speaking to the one you love speaks volumes of how loving you really are. It's been months since I've talked to the woman I love & she would be feeling exactly as you are now. It's sad that we lose the love of our lives. I miss her everyday. Considering its Valentines day today(not yet light) & I still bought 39 Peonies(one for every year-her age) as they're her favourite flowers. I even had them flown interstate because of the colours I wanted to surprise her with. A hand made card with original poetry from my heart. After all this time I held on in hope & reading your letter broke my heart as this is exactly how I feel about her. I miss her dearly. I know what I'd say! How much I've missed her & how glad I am she called. How much I love her & that I've spent this time tiresly improving on the characteristics that I needed to change to be a better Man as I never want to make those mistakes again. It's been tough & every week I've attended group classes, plus seen professional help. That is how serious I am with what I promised. That is how much you mean to me. I am not there completely I will admit, I'm close though & am happy where I'm at. This is the only reason I haven't reached out for otherwise you'd see no changes & I would only disappoint you in the future. I wouldn't want that for either of us. I respect you too much! You don't drain the goodness out of anyone! You are the woman I love & are everything I've ever desired in a woman as I've seen who you really are. Your smart, wise beyond your years, kind & compassionate, when you laugh, it's impossible to not join in as your witty sense of humour draws whoever hears you! The way you make me feel! I have never felt so loved! When you look up at me I melt! Yes me a Man, melting! I get instantaneously drawn into your gaze & am transfixed for it feels like we are gazing into each other's soul? It does for me! Then when wet touch......once more your the most attentive lover I've experienced! I want to make love every time I see you. I can go on and on....everything we did together made me feel so alive for the first time in my life & I've loved before, nothing came close to this & that's why I've patiently held on in the hope we can overcome this & walk hand in hand together on this journey we call life till the ends of time...? Not a single date have I been on or even entertained the idea for my heart & soul have always been yours since the day we met! Thank you for reading this far dear Author & as this could be anyone I'm still humbled that I can say this out to the universe for the Blonde Blued Eyed Woman I love unconditionally. I too am not writing here for much longer as I want to live a complete Man, not one where I'm fine during the day, everyone doesn't realise I'm wearing a mask to hide the huge amount of emotional grief/pain in losing her. Time has shown me what I've done wrong & I admit this. I believed we could have overcome our differences for they weren't catastrophic in my blue eyes. I've seen so much worse here & other couples. I should have been more compassionate for she was very venerable & I never meant to hurt her with those words. I was hurt by what she said to me as well & responded with anger. I live with that everyday & why I've acted on ensuring it doesn't happen again. At the least I can only hope that she is happy & may one day forgive me for not being the Man I am now once again. It's being the hardest & traumatic lesson in my life for she was the One. I hope your alright dear Author & regardless of who he is, there are some men out there that do believe in Love & can change permanently in a positive manner for for themselves & in turn to prove to all, not just her, family, fiends, & associates that yes his actions do synchronise with his words & he's the Man I met & fell in love with. Thank you for listening to me.