Yes. Actually, I had anxiety before my dad's death but his death triggered it to a completely new level. Not only was I worried about my mom, but about myself. Health anxiety. When my dad passed, a doctor told me that me or my sister may pass away from the same thing because it could be genetic and that kind of messed me up. It's been better in the past few months when I think about myself but I'm still very much anxious about my mother's health status.

Thing is.. I keep having these stupid conversations with myself where I'd say, come on God, it wouldn't exactly be fair to lose my mom at this age after having lost my dad at 22. And then I think, what are you talking about, it isn't abour fairness, there's lots of kids younger than you who are orphans.

So sometimes I'm on a whole spiral, but I'm trying to live with it.