I read some of your post history. Start with therapy, if you can afford it. If not, look for some community based options or find a therapist with a sliding scale (reduced rates). Not sure how your ADHD and autism affects you day to day, but if you don't mind talking to people and you like computers, give an IT career a look. It's an office position (unless you wind up in some remote oil field fixing those PCs) so it's easier to look after yourself with your health issues. Salaries will vary by location, but it's not difficult to start at $15 an hour as a help desk associate once you have your certs. Look at the CompTIA A+. It's easier to leap in with a degree, but not impossible without one. Drop into r/sysadmin for more info if you're interested. Good luck.