South node conjunct Uranus in the tenth house and Aquarius, you’re very comfortable with eccentric people, ideas, and lifestyles, and with your own freedom, but in this lifetime you’re dealing with being grounded and loyal to family and friends. To me it echoes with that first house Saturn, you’ve been responsible from a young age and know what it means to be a real adult. Like a grown ass woman sort of thing. You always have to be the grown up it seems, you had harsh demands made on you, and so you demand a lot out of others. I hope you have found a sense of security in yourself and people you trust by now in life, when you do you should try to relax but you’re a Taurus rising so you do know how to relax, you should relax by being creative