I always wanted to run away. Things were always bad but they started getting worse. When i was 18, my dad left me alone. In a roach and rodent filled apartment with no electricity for 6 months, without food or money, in the winter. I took the opportunity to leave when he decided to leave me with absolutely nothing. I realized he was nothing without me. When he decided to come back he endured a lot more pain and a lot more loneliness and when i was around again he treasured me and always always apologized and helped me out even if he had nothing. My point being, if you find this opportunity, take it. Yeah you might have to push yourself til 18 but once you’re on your own, you have to be prepared to be on your own, thats it. Sometimes you have to leave people for them to realize what you meant. And sometimes they don’t. But they aren’t even worth it really. Keep your head up please. If u need someone to talk to, im down to listen.