Any wiccans?

Okay first of all I would like to apologize and rephrase myself. I hope I didn't give you the wrong idea by when I said "lifestyle". I should have said "belief system". I suppose lifestyles could be attributed to that of "skater" or "preppy" or "emo" etc, but to me a religion is a set of rules or commandments that you have to follow and if you follow them, good for you, but if you don't, you will be punished. That's why I didn't refrained from calling Wicca a religion but we all have different views so if you disagree with that I respect that and I hope that wasn't like offensive to your beliefs. Anyway, onto my questions.

After I decided the Mormon religion was a complete hypocrisy, I found that Buddhism was the best religion that fit my beliefs and of course meditation is a huge part of Buddhism. The problem with meditation for me is I have ridiculously severe ADD and ADHD (which you'll probably notice with all of my thoughts being all over the place) so being able to control my thoughts and focus is damn near impossible. That being said I've used cannabis quite a bit in my day both medically and recreationally and that has helped immensely but still not quite enough. But there were still other substances I've used to reach a higher me, one of which being LSD. LSD has been one of the most profound, enlightening things I've had the blessing to use. But on my most recent dose, a little over three months ago, I took a "heroic" dose as they call it and entered a realm that I have never been to before. In this realm there was an entity guiding me. It wasn't visible to me, but at the same time I saw him. It didn't touch me, but at the same time I felt it. It didn't talk to me, but at the same time I heard it. It let me know that everything was going to be okay and I was doing just fine. As he left I was left in a complete state of bliss. That's a very extreme understatement too. Then there was somewhat of a blackout and then I just remember sobbing like I've never cried before. I was bawling hysterically to the point where I couldn't breathe and I just remember saying "it's so beautiful I don't deserve this. I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry." And I repeatedly said how beautiful it was and I can still recall what the presence "looked" like and I can faintly remember what I felt coming out of it. So first I kind of just want to know your views on entities and things like what I just told you, but also in Buddhism using substances to reach a higher state is frowned upon because they say that it's not necessarily you reaching that state. Psychedelics aren't the drugs that society makes them out to be for me. I see them as an extremely sacred medicine for anyone interested in their own consciousness. So what are Wiccan views on psychoactive drugs like that?

When you say some focus on the God, others focus on the Goddess, what do you mean by that? I understand the concept of what your saying, but coming from a monotheistic religion where they only believe in one god, a duotheistic belief like Wicca where you believe in two kind of warps my brain. Another thing that's really hard to get out of my head is the automatic attributing of God to a man and Goddess to a woman. I don't know if that's a good thing or bad thing and I can feel my hyperactive brain overthinking a lot so I'm just going to stop here for now and hopefully let the answers clear some of my irrational thoughts. Thanks again for helping me!

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