Well right now I find myself attracted TO an insanely narcissistic female...
And I don't know why. Am I just a glutton for punishment? This chick will manipulate the fuck out of anyone if they have something she needs/wants, but she will damn near ignore me if she doesn't want/need anything from me.
I don't think she is necessarily attracted to me, but she is attracted to my kindness and generosity (which I guess I consider a weakness). If she needs rides or favors, I will make an honest attempt to help her out. But if I ever need something or any kind of favor and ask her, it's ALWAYS some bullshit excuse about how she can't possibly help me out because she is soooooooooo busy.
Yesterday was one of the final straws. We were supposed to go have lunch and run some errands. She knew I was on my way over. And like two minutes before I show up, this worthless piece of drug dealing shit she occasionally dates/fucks/gets knocked up by and then has his abortion, shows up unexpectedly, and I get blown off... Just as I am parking.
Her life is in tatters, she has no stable income (aside from helping out the worthless piece of shit drug-dealing FWB), no education (not even a GED), most of her friends and family have turned on her, she is CHOCK FULL of mental disorders that she denies having and refuses to take any kind of medication (because weed is all the medicine anyone needs!), but she is absolutely convinced that she is perfect, and all her problems are everyone else's fault, and she has absolutely not done a single thing wrong. Pointing out any of her errors or faults just sends her into a rage.
But I can't get enough of her when she shows me attention.
I am stupid.
I am trying to wean myself off of her, but I don't know how. It's like an addiction. If I just cut off contact, I just end up getting in touch with her again in a few weeks. So I don't know. Maybe I should just do something to piss her off so bad (like point out EVERY SINGLE FAULT that she has) that she doesn't want anything to do with me since I won't kiss her ass and tell her what she wants to hear?