Anyone else feel bitter about holidays like Mother's/Father's day?

I live with my parents and have a really hard time with father's day. Last year my boyfriend spent over an hour with me trying to find a card because I can't buy a gooshy, lovey card that's a bold face lie. Bought a card basically saying thanks for fixing shit because even though he's a major dick he always fixed the 96 minivan I just got rid of this November. Still haven't found one for tomorrow.

It's hard seeing all these posts on facebook about loving fathers when I grew up being terrified of mine. A lot of my female friends are daddy's girls and I'm jealous they get to have that kind of relationship. He's gotten better since I became an adult but still has his rampages and I can't just get over the physical abuse as a kid. My 3 brothers seem like they've been able to let it go and pretend it didn't happen but I can't.

Couple weeks ago he threw out the bike I've had for 17 years because "it's a piece of junk [I] haven't ridden in 5 years." I was regularly going for 10 mile rides with my mom..

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