Snooping through my profile reveals very little about me. Yes, I do have a 3.92 yo girl, but i also have a 16 mo son too. Yes, I did teach chemistry for a while, but i currently work for a bio-pharmaceutical company that engineers chemicals which your 'husband' may prescribe to his patients some day.

Regardless, I usually never read posts like yours, but i felt compelled to because it bears an uncanny resemblance to the conversations that my wife and I have on a regular basis. Although I would hope that I wouldn't have to explain this, but the point of my post is to illustrate the perspective from your 'husband's' side. You see, I don't care how bad ass of a doctor, lawyer, scientist, teacher, construction worker, or landscaper you are, you still have the same feelings that we all do when you leave your wife at home with your children...guilt and anxiety. True, if our job keeps us busy enough, our minds are occupied and we do not feel the guilt and anxiety all the time, but part of the message is that we work incredibly hard to do our part to support our families, even though we would choose to spend all day with them rather than work as hard as we do...but again, there is no comparison to what stay at home mom's do.

I'm not too sure what's going on with your situation, but the average doctor finished his/her residency around 29 years old if there are no gaps in their education. This means that your 'husband' is liable to be prosecuted as a pedophile as you have a 2 yo son, and are only 18 years old yourself. The fact the this post says you have enjoyed 10 years of marriage so far further complicates things. BTW...does your 'doctor husband' know about your boyfriend fanning you as you gave birth to your daughter?

Next time, read between the lines and accept the good will of other's trying to help you make sense of your own illusions. Good Luck :-)