This too will pass. You will have good experiences & this darkness will one day be contextualized. The most chaotic, nightmarish trip of my 100+ DMT breakthroughs occurred during my third time using the molecule. Time & continued exploration/expansion of consciousness (whether it be through meditation, artistic insight, or psychedelics) are the only things that help integrate these difficult experiences.

After dark trips, I often turn to Carl Jung, one of the most enlightened thinkers of the 20th century; "There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.”