For the next two years I struggled to regain a sense of normalcy in my life. Much of the time I could ignore my anxieties, but I was still pretty susceptible to irrational worries. Unfortunately, this isn't a problem that just goes away one day, it takes a long while and eventually fades away for the most part. Occasionally the anxieties come back, but I'm in a much calmer and more rational place and I'm able to reason with the feelings appropriately.

I was like this for a few months until recently. I couldn't believe I was ever so worried and when I was sick or found anything questionable it was easy to forget about. What's really stupid is that I drank too much coffee which I never drink and it gave me tons of anxiety one day, it was like a trigger or something and all the things I felt calm about were suddenly terrifying again.

In your case though, you have a lot more than the opinion of a medical professional, you have actual data, in the form of bloodwork, demonstrating that you do not have any signs of the disease in question.

I guess I just keep thinking maybe it only started after the blood test or hasn't metastasized yet. TMI, but I can feel an actually hard, immovable, kind of big lump by my breast which is what everything says are symptoms of cancer. It could also just be the normal lumps that show up during some womens' cycles but I have no idea and of course am fixated (whoa like my username) on the worst possibility.

I would recommend seeking therapy for this issue, as this degree of anxiety is serious business, and this is clearly no way to go through life.

I do want to talk to a therapist if I could find a good one.