anyone else lost or pushed away their best friends?

I've done this all my life but I thought it was more down to moving around a lot when I was young, I've got an ability to just cut people off.

I'm loyal to a fault then when people (what seems like inevitably) take advantage of me, I'll just say "nope, you're done" & then they wonder why I'm being so harsh. I could give a multitude of examples if you wanted but I'll spare you the details.

Honestly though, I wonder if I'm better off alone with some acquaintances rather than full on friendships. I know where I stand like this. I always end up saying stuff that hurts peoples feelings anyway & I'm constantly stressed about any social events as I never know wtf's going on. Since I've stopped drinking it's 10x more intense too so I'm just kind of keeping to myself these days.

All I can say is that I hope you find happiness in whatever you do. Try & see positives in your situation if you can. It's not easy sometimes but even just soaking up nature can be a positive.

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