Yes, I had been traumatized, abused and exploited. I relied on drugs and alcohol as an adolescent to "cope". Unsuccessfully. I nearly succeeded killing myself at 18. I was hospitalized for extended periods, but the subject of abuse never came up. I was completely physically and emotionally broken by 19. I looked like I was 14. I could barely get to the end of a sentence without crying. I met a therapist where I was receiving "treatment" who led me to believe that my problem was that I was "in the closet". He helped me out of the closet and helped himself. After about 8 months I realized something, I find men repulsive. I had always been quiet and shy. Sensitive. But that's the kind of man I am. The kind that likes women.

So... Ask yourself what YOU want.