I've got your number that's why... has anyone? Has any of the millions of scientists and doctors every considered this possibility? Yes obviously we know it's not the chemicals and hormones, which you'd know if it was a serious question and you really cared to know just by looking it up.... people blame chemicals, trauma, modern lifestyles, blah blah blah.... yeah let's just sit around and wonder, like this is a game like, are there aliens? Why are clouds made?

You suffer more than me, and wondering about hormones and chemicals is a good reason to not take meds, that's what you said. Meds don't work for some people, if you've tried all of them honestly, stopped lithium pretty quick side effects wear off after months for some people like me, just pointing out what your post says to me, just because it's not what you wanted, doesn't mean I'm being hostile or not constructive