by not comparing myself or demeanor to fucking Lenin lmao, like jesus fucking christ you nerds sometimes lol

But sincerely, I just don't really give a fuck anymore, cliche yes, but also true. I have anxiety and depression, this doesn't necessarily mean I'm automatically anti-social, or nervous around people, but I think on average it got myself inside my own head so much that I did become that. One of the ways I got away from that was just not giving a fuck about the 400,000 possible ways a thing could go wrong, and just accept if it did, it did, and my role then, to accept that and try to do better. You'll burn with embarrassment sometimes, sometimes it'll hurt, but pain is apart of life, and its better than being locked in a cage of your own making, thats a kind of hell I never want to return to.