Listen your gonna be met with resistants the idea is too not have expectations... your realization needs to be that what ever is is in now seeking its balance.. it's all about patients and then its up too you. You need to self elaborate keep learning not striving being at peace with in momentum and not expect yourself to feel a certain way there is no right or wrong in any moment they're is only manifestation and if your wasting your time manifesting your on resistance instead of manifest exceptance you'll be in pain.. do not try and escape your thought.. you seek the matrix mind that can be distracted but you are all ready awoken you are already metacognitive there is no going back. You need to not worry about when you need to control your thought into acceptance in the now it's hard it takes self elaboration, yoga, meditation, plant based diet and zero flouride but one you fix your environment and your mentality start externalizing your peace and use it to correlate and manifest more possitive actions and opportunity