And I'm throwing every dollar I have at the problem for people to fuck me like this.

What they did do was pump me full of about 30-40 msVs of radiation with pointless evals I didn't agree with treating my issues as singular occurrences and refusing to acknowledge or treat my underlying problem - infectious process leading to these sequelae.

The people that tried to "help" me tried to get me to go to their holistic medicine practices to sell me bullshit supplements and sell me on chronic Lyme disease quackery.

Throughout all this the only person that helped me was my goddamn self. I had to put myself on liquid vitamins, I had to order and live off surgery packets, I had to beg for anti parasitics while nobody listened, I had to hide what was wrong with me when I had neuro symptoms so nobody threw me In a straight jacket, I had to do physical therapy entirely self guided and at home to rebuild all the strenght I'd lost, I had to go to LabCorp and pull a pint of my blood every week doing my own tropical testing, I had to piss away my life savings for all the previous while people gave me empty platitudes and sent me 1000 - 10k bills in the mail for literal 10 second evaluations.

Do you have any idea what it's like to be in the state I was in dragging yourself to a shitty walk in lab to self test yourself for tropical parasites wondering if whatever infected you in the tropics had come back to kill you while everyone else did nothing but irradiate you and make you even worse?

Naturally..... I lost my job. Would have been homeless if my family didn't let me move in and basically spoon feed me. And so much other shit. I really don't have the words.

Now... I've been to three research centers and found out my stomach issues are permanent, I have autonomic dysfunction - gee imagine that with something fucking with your brain - of which there's no fix, and all my joints etc are still fucked, I can't eat any form of grains or certain foods anymore my immune system is just wild, I can't stand up in one spot without almost passing out - condition called POTs, and some other stuff. I'm also seeing signs of peripheral artery disease because lying around for months in end like that and living off surgery packets sky rocketed my lipid levels to > 200 points for the last year. And I know it's PAD because I now get the toe and other pain and had plystehmography or whatever it's called measure my arterial pressures confirming it.

So I now have to save about 20 grand to afford stem cell therapies... And fix myself yet again because.....

Of course if I tried to fix the latter nobody would offer me regenerative therapies. They'd make their Ortho a bit richer by giving me bullshit steroid shots so I can not feel it and wear them down even further creating a dependency and turning me into a cash cow.

In other words unless you're actively dying right then and there nobody gives a single fuck and will watch your health slowly be destroyed while placating you with bullshit and empty cherry picked taglines and then will turn around in the same breath when that all culminates and go "wow how could this have happened".