Ive had anxiety the past few years and the realization only recently hit me that im probably going to have it for life. The first year and half or so with it was probably the darkest time in my life but since then ive learned to manage it better. Not sure how it feels for others but for me its like im in a constant state of stress 24/7. Nothing is as fun as it used to be, even when im having fun with the people i love i still have this uncontrollable feeling in the back of my mind that always brings me down a bit. Its mostly not terrible at any given moment, but the persistent feeling of stress, guilt, and worry are enough to make me tired in a way sleeping cant fix.