I'm probably not going to be able to explain this very well. Brief back story, when I was in my teens and early 20's weird shit started happening to me. And not every now and then, pretty much non-stop. I think it likely I was probably what people would call "possessed" although it isn't anything like people think. But in a way it was exactly like people think. Makes no sense so I'll move on. Actually first I'll add that this possession was also like a doorway opening up. I'll also add that there was no control over said doorway and also that the existence of this doorway made whatever was on the other side very unhappy. It went on for years and to this day I have no idea what it was. I have searched for stories from others who have experienced something like it and I have never found anyone. That is actually why I dip into this sub, though I don't believe I've ever commented. I occasionally see someone with some things that have a few elements of it, but never the full blown thing. Anyway, back to the devil/angel thing. I would quite often get visitors. They could only be described as supernatural and I suspect they were where the idea of "angels" may have originated. One night in particular I remember well. It was a bad night. He looked young, if I were to guess the age of his appearance I would say about 15, although it was obvious he was much older. By millennia. Black hair, blue eyes. And an absolute animosity to me and the fact that what was occurring was occurring.

I could literally write a book on those years. It was a long hard experience, though it had its good parts. In the end I don't know anything more than I did before. I don't think I learned anything. It has definitely mellowed out as I've gotten older. Occasionally I will feel it, but for the most part it's over.