Hi, there are so many similarities between our childhoods, right down to the bizarre way our mothers stood idly by and let the abuse happen. My mother used to tell me to stay quiet while being abused as if that would make him lose interest. I’ve heard the adage ‘you can’t heal in the environment that made you sick’ before but that doesn’t have to mean zero contact if you don’t want it to. Anyway I’m in my mid twenties now so I may be able to offer some insight: keep going to therapy, it’s hard but it will help. If you decide you want to talk about it, talk about it, if not then don’t. I went through years of talking about it too much before finally feeling like I didn’t need to anymore. You can’t erase the abuse or its effects from your mind completely, the less you try to do that the more you’ll understand yourself and your needs - which is important - you are allowed to h