I was apprehensive before I got treatment also, and let me tell you I'm so glad I finally did it. I got diagnosed with depression about a decade ago, and life hadnt gotten any easier. I had a few mental breakdowns and suicide attempts. I was lucky to have friends to turn to, who knew what I was going through. I got denied by the VA, and then the covid lockdown, all that really fucked me up. I realized I wasn't winning the battle anymore. Even though my friends knew I was struggling, when things got real bad I didn't want to tell them. I really didn't know what to expect from treatment, but I got medicated almost immediately, and after some time, my life is completely different. Therapy isn't all that bad, I really just affirm that the meds are working.