Its going to take a lot of time, because I have to go through irc logs, skype logs, and steam logs arent saved I believe, and I dont know what she did but I didnt take screenshots of everysingle conversation we have because I never imagined she would become a psychpath like this.
These that i send you are the last messages we exchanged and so you can see what its the terrible harassment and stalking I did, what I wrote her, once a week for the last month, once a week. Its a very complex situation and you jump in all in without knowing what you were getting into, seeing a charming girl fun to be around and you asumed all she said is true, I did that same mistake 9 months ago, I told you, this is not the first time she does this. This will take me time to find as I told you, but she told me in the past she was in avpd channel 1 year ago, had some problems too (thats what she always does, Im not the first one I wont be the last) and now 6 months ago he went to that channel again back because she also had problems with another person in a channel we were in together. About this person I have the logs on skype of her calling him "he is not even a person to me" to another guy at his back when at the same time she was talking to him, "he is completely crazy" with girls everysingle one of them had problems with "she seems too happy, i dont like her" another one, "she is acting like a bitch" another one "she is so childish and annoying" She always, always did talk at other people back. Now she become abusive and even broke our privacy which in case isnt enough red flag, see what were our last messages, there are is one missing from me I think where I told her that she didnt care and she sounded manipulative but maybe I deleted it or it was in another account, it would take time, I never thought I was gonna be put on a trial so yes, that takes time.
The same way I also have messages when she was actually going to therapy and she was being treated, she made sense of what she did and she use to say things as "its my bpd talking and that I take things really bad and I have a thin skin" and then a month after her therapist left her (another red flag, she refused to get help and who knows what she did to her therapist) then suddenly she began to say that she didnt have bpd at all, that she was in control. She obviously has a lot of problems that you me or anyone at all dont know, because she only lies and lies. You dont know her real name, I do because I thought I was being catfished once 6 months ago when we had our first fight, you dont know where she lives, you dont know how old is she, and yet you want to believe what she said when there are red flags everywhere indicating what she is doing? Really, its sad and I have seen this enough, the "Oh, i know more than you think" when actually the truth is the opposite. You know what she wants you to know.
After our first fight 6 months ago (its not the first time) she did the same, she began to ignore me and told me to leave her alone, and again, removed me from everywhere, but that time she actually listened and realized that it was all a misunderstanding after two months and she even apologized to react that way and told me that she felt abandoned and that I was a true friend. I dont know if I have those logs, that was on irc on pm.
I dont have anything to hide, Im not doing anything bad, she wants to destroy her life even further and doesnt want me to contact her thats done, because if she doesnt get the help she needs she becomes a psychopath that only causes pain and suffering to those who care for her like I did. Do you know about her situation with her family? because she even told me that she creates all this suffring when I told her i trust her long time ago.
SHe really pushed the situation to the limit and you personally took it even further acting in public just with what she wants to show without talking to me first.
DO i really have to spend all day looking on logs to show you what I told you or the little hints I show you are enough? because the other will take a whole day but if thats what it takes thats what it takes. Read for instance the blog out of the fog, see what people with untreated bpd does, and you will see all the red flags I talked to you about, and instead of trying to help her telling her that she need to go back to her therapist or find a new one you encourage her to abuse others, you are not helping honestly, only making things much worse
I wont let her destroy my life and make others treat me like a criminal like for instance you did with that threat. I dont know if you ever were in a similar situation but I think we can understand each other on this after what I told you
This is being really hard for me and you are making it even worse with your attitude, I wish you could at least not prejudge me without knowing