You are BORED, not horny.

Just checking in to agree with how true this is and vent to how I've messed up again for the past few months. I started no fap almost 3 years ago and for about 2 and a half years I was doing great; Starting working out seriously, quit smoking weed and drinking (both of which I would use an escape every night from the age of about 19) and got super back into my passion for playing the piano and started taking lessons again and giving recitals and I finally got a girl....But around November of last year it all ended again. I went on a trip with that girl and she confessed to me the second day there that she had cheated on me. I was super pissed and ruined our trip. After the trip I didn't talk to her for about two weeks but foolishly I made up with her. Which was a huge mistake. One day when we were at a public park some random guy came up and started talking to her while I was with her, like what the fuck. I blew up and asked her who the fuck that was, what's going on. She said it's just some guy she talks to when she goes there(we would walk/run the track and use the work out station). And she obviously was hitting on that guy or giving the impression she is single because why the fuck else would a guy come up and do that when she is with another guy...A few days later I checked her phone when she went to the bathroom and saw messages from two random dudes in there. Freaked out, called her a slut a mut and a piece of trash and left her place. It basically ended there and it severely depressed me. I've always felt like the nice guy and she was my first real girlfriend, and I'm 25 btw. That is the only girl who hasn't friend zoned me(I have gotten laid a handful of times but it was always with 100% sluts. randoms at parties that would turn into lets get drunk and have sex at this party this weekend) but now I understand why she didn't; I'm easy to take advantage of and she liked to keep me around as her 'boyfriend' to get her emotional fix while she was fucking guys on the side. She claimed it was only that one guy she confessed to and that it was only one time but I know she is lying... Anyways that made me super depressed. Basically a few days after that happened I fell off the cliff again. Started smoking weed from the moment I would wake up until I got home and would drink anywhere from 6-10 beers a night(IPAs too not cheap shit). Canceled my lessons with my teacher and stopped working out. From November up until today I have been PMo'ing and drinking/smoking every single day. Haven't touched my piano at all. I made it three days this week(the only days I haven't PMOed since I fell off again) until today when I PMOed to get those thoughts out of my head. I'm drunk right now. I thought I had it beat. Starting tomorrow I am going to go full force into this sub again and make sure I am not doing any drugs or masturbating. I'm just venting because I need to. It helps. I could cry right now. Addiction runs in my family and I want to beat this. I also wonder how many others of you who are stuck in the PMO have addicts in their family because it is seriously the exact same thing as being a drug addict; You just have to get your fix even though you know you shouldn't. I've been doing absolutely nothing since November except going to work, getting off, sitting in my computer chair and wasting my life. Starting tomorrow I'm going to fix this again. Like I already said I'm just typing this to vent and to share how easy it is to fall off the bandwagon again. Also I'm drunk like I said so yea. I could cry. I'm going to turn around again. That is all guys.

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