M/22
- Rough childhood.
- Loving parents but separated and incapable of parenting properly.
- Derailed badly around my 14th/15th, abused cannabis and alcohol for two years. School suffers.
- Start fearing the potential harm I've done to myself through adolescent drug abuse.
- Become depressed around my 16th Birthday.
- Drop out of school a year and a half later. Burnout.
- Spent 4+ years doing nothing. Social isolation. No education. Become numb and dispassionate.
Dealing with PDD for over 6 years now. Recently suffering from major depressive episode(s). Deep rooted anxiety is eating away my sanity. Trepidation overwhelming.
Therapy: Been fighting this with everything I've got the past couple of months. I've achieved some things but negative thought patterns and a messed up brain chemistry keep dragging me down. I think I need professional help to stand a chance but I can't get any. Waiting times for any worthwhile therapy is currently almost 2 years in my area. Been prescribed Xanax when I was at my worst, but I quickly built tolerance against that and it stopped affecting me.