Hi,

My dad hit me a few times but stopped when I threatened police involvement. His other abusive characteristics remained.

He "taught" my brother and I that my mom was the reason things were bad and to blame her for everything. We were called worthless assholes and the like for not knowing how to do anything, and we were never taught.

Is there a term for this? I have a hard time validating my abuse to myself and anyone I can share this with because I don't have a term for it. Gaslighting and verbal abuse were involved.

I'm doing okay, I feel like I have some sort of PTSD. Sometimes before falling asleep id hear my dad scream my name. My brother, long story short, killed himself somewhat recently and it forced me to realize how bad it was. I just don't know what type of bad I guess.

Thank you for what you do! I wouldn't have survived being a teenager without my therapist.