I still have acquaintances but at this point actual friendship is not a good investment of my energy. Also, I don't really need help doing stuff. I just don't work much or anything like that but the basics I can manage. I find Reddit a good source of social interaction. When it comes to actual friendships I'm supposed to give something and at this point I have nothing to give to others. Again, just being realistic. I used to have those kind of friendships where I was always leaning on someone but then I realised its supposed to go both ways and I honestly don't have the inner resources to emotional support others. I suppose you could say that being ill has made me very selfish because I need all my energy just to get through the day. I still empathise with other people but I just don't want the expectations from them