Definitely going to forget the steps/concepts/all of the past reasoning. Formerly* very much an introverted type, Over analyzing, expecting more from people and being let down due to many preconceived ideas while simultaneously being perceived as inept, disinterested, obsessive and non-communicative. Orbiting on the parts of both parties, inadequate in direct behavior/actions. Doubt, Bitterness, Obfuscation. Being perceived as more in love with music than in love with a human being. Not being genuinely understood. Not being afforded certain opportunities to address the more complicated concerns that I could see on the horizon. Not going with the flow and just submitting to what I wanted even for a short while. Awareness of societies eventual expectations. Awareness of the pacing of society - it's a booming housing market. Not settling for less than "love".. getting my jollies is easy, attraction is easy. Being perceived as too stressful to deal with.. Don't worry about the things you didn't know then, there are plenty of things you still don't know, like how I'm going to bring the world to an "end" in 6-12 years. Awful work ethic, lazy, smart enough to know that I can't say to you that you couldn't genuinely accept me because I would lose favor.