Are there any former FAs lurking on this subreddit?

In elementary school I was very popular. I had a girlfriend at 13, lost of friends, and felt like things were progressing normally.

Throughout highschool I didn't really care about having a girlfriend. I just never thought it was important. I had very low self-esteem since I had moderate/severe acne, and I distracted myself with video games.

I did manage to have sex a few times with a very religious girl, but neither of us enjoyed it very much. She felt guilty, and I wasn't really attracted to her. It was awkward and mechanical.

Anyway, over the past two years (im 20 now) I've been trying very hard to become confident. I don't really have many friends. I sometimes do stuff with my brothers friend. I do play racquetball with one person whom I would consider my only true friend. Apparently he thinks highly enough of me to invite me to be groomsman at his wedding...

I managed to lose the acne, but I still have some scarring, so it's a daily struggle to feel confident about my appearance.

About a month ago I was suddenly struck with this feeling of deep loneliness. Like, before this, I was reasonably happy... even if I didn't have many friends or wasn't dating. So I tried... I used dating websites/apps. I managed to meet this girl on an app called MeetMe. We texted for about a week and we began to feel more comfortable with each other. Eventually we agreed to meet up one weekend.

Anyway, I am pretty good at carrying a conversation. We met and she was very shy, but I basically just talked and talked until she felt more comfortable around me. Things just felt natural. I put my arm around her and we cuddled at the theatre. We did some other stuff and I kissed her before she had to leave (she lives out of town).

From there it just progressed and we've been seeing each other for about a month now, and honestly I think I love her. We tell each other everything and I like everything about her: she's sweet, caring, attractive, sexy, smart. I think both of us are very lonely. We have had sex a few times and I find it difficult to control my emotions around her...

So anyway, that's my story. Take it as you will!

/r/ForeverAlone Thread