I feel odd; disconnected. I consider myself a logical person but over the last few years I've wondered if there's something else.

I feel almost fake in my emotions, when I feel something I'm immediately introspective and I figure out why I'm getting that emotion. Usually it's somewhat mocking, I'll feel sad during a movie but then make myself cry and think "I'm only doing this because I want to." It's not untrue either, I can just stop immediately and it feels very odd.

The other day I cried for real while talking to someone after somewhat of an argument, and it was surreal. It felt different. I couldn't control myself, couldn't make myself not cry even when I was trying to speak. That experience kind of scared me, I'm not sure if I just feel emotions to a lesser degree and have to force them to be more than they are.

I feel, or rather think, that I'm too logical about things. Even as I type this I'm not "feeling" upset, I'm just feeling neutral.