Dude I was in a relationship almost exactly like that for a long time. Still thought I was going to marry her, and she was often hinting about it. That breakup was the absolute hardest thing I’ve ever done; I could only do it with my family’s support.

3 years on, I am so incredibly fucking grateful that I got out of that situation. I can’t even imagine what my life would have been like. Now, I’m engaged to a wonderful woman who I can 100% be myself with all the time, express all my thoughts and listen to all of hers, and we’ve had 1 fight in 2 years (which was mostly because I was being an overtired dickhead).

It’s only going to get worse once you’re married, and worse again once you have kids, and it’ll get harder and harder to escape as time goes by. You deserve better than gaslighting.

GET. THE. FUCK. OUT.

If you want to talk, feel free to message me; I know how much of a confusing clusterfuck of love, frustration, self-doubt, and anger you’re probably feeling right now, but based on what you’ve said here, this could well be the best decision you ever make. It 100% was for me.