Aversion towards my life

Listen, I'm 31 and I've been depressed my whole life. My father killed himself when I was three. My Mom worked and my older brother and I never got along and he was a stoner. I just lived to be different from him and joined the military out of HS and went hru uni. I was a total introvert and enjoyed doing stuff by myself andI met a girl just by shear chance in Uni without even trying. I'm now married to her with two kids. Years later I went through a dark time on the interwebs basically becoming addicted to gore and death. I got so down on the world that when my wife and I would argue I would just think about death. Eventually I wanted to be dead myself and sort of tried. Thankfully I failed. I sought mental health at work and though I wasn't into the psychiatrist thing I was prescribed some anti depressants. It helped me get over the hurdle and I eventually weaned myself off of them.

You think you know what life is all about, bit you're young. Sounds heal and you'll get through it. Trust me when I say that ending your life is a mistake. I'm only alive today because I forgot that I was wearing a belt (something I never wear) and tried to hang myself with my long sleeve shirt. Life has a funny way of being both incredibly difficult and easy. You're sad now sure, but you're on the downswing. You just need to accept it and wait for the upswing.

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