Same. In my state we can start maternity leave 4 weeks before your due date, so I was planning to take that time to read all my baby books and prepare the house and shit. Well, the baby came 5 weeks early. The car seat I ordered hadn't even been delivered yet.

Honestly you just figure it out as you go along. It doesn't matter how many books you read, you won't know how to change a diaper until you change a diaper. You won't figure out how to breastfeed until you've got the baby in your arms (and maybe not even for a while). Newborns sleep pretty much constantly. They become your whole world for a while and you're just basically observing them nonstop and looking up what shit means and what to do about it.

The thing that I realized a little bit when I was in the hospital but absolutely once I got home is that the main struggle is adapting yourself to your baby, and rearranging your life into 3 hour segments. You spent 9 months making a baby with your body out of spaghetti and chicken nuggets, you are equipped to care for a child in the world. They don't require that much at first. But you have to jettison some of your own needs.