First thing I noticed is how much you notice what other people are doing. Don't, just stop. How do I know this? Because I did it took and I used to view the world just like you. You noticed who got pins at track, you notice who your friends are gravitating toward, how you didn't talk to the girl you like. You didn't tell us your goals, your dreams, what was good about your day, or how you'd like to see yourself. Feel fat? Fine, but don't let it define you. Force yourself to stop looking to see what everyone else is doing and begin focusing on you. I bet your English teacher said your writing needs work because he/she knows you have promise. (I'm a screenwriter with the WGA and I've 2 books out, and my writing always needs work! All writers want to improve.) by the way, how do you know for sure that the rest of the English class was doing good work? You don't. Again, I'm pretty sure your teacher is pushing you because they see promise. You are not shit. Stick up for yourself like you would for a buddy. Start forcing your thoughts to be good about yourself. You might want to try volunteering, it's the best way to put yourself in a place where you only do good for others, feed the homeless, or volunteer at an animal shelter. In no time, the person you really are will come out and people will notice. I mean this, volunteering with abused kids made me see and realize how valuable a human I was and I stopped caring who did or got something I didnt, because deep down I knew myself and respected myself deeply. If you need to share, feel free to pm me. Above all, I will send good thoughts your way and wish you tons of good days.