bad place

I went through the same thing. And this subreddit is proof that a lot of people have, or are currently going through the same thing. You are not alone.

I used to think i was pathetic. That i would never live up to anyone's expectations of me. I felt like i was moving through life so slowly as everyone around me zipped by. Like i was trapped in my own personal hell, and being tortured by the happiness that surrounded my bubble, and was always just out of reach.

I never thought it would end. I also went through just about every treatment in the book. It seemed like i was doomed to suffer internally.

But i never stopped trying. I wanted to, many times. But i never did. I continued to explore and try treatments, and im am so glad that i did. I cant put my finger on what finally did it, but all of the sudden, i was getting a glimpse of happiness every so often. Then a little bit more, and a little bit more.

It took a long time but i am finally in a healthy state of mind. And thinking about how i used to feel, it scares me to think of what might have happened had i given up, as i would have missed out on the feelings that i have now.

Just keep trying. You might have to go through some uncomfortable situations, but believe me you are worth it. And it will get better.

If you need to vent or just chat you know how to get a hold of me. There are also some great resources in the sidebar of this sub.

Much Love

/r/SuicideWatch Thread