Battling myself

It was not to say "damn, I wanna be like that guy.. I wanna be him, I wanna look how he does.. etc etc."

It falls more along the lines that it baffles me as to how different weed smokers (incl. myself) are.

Some people go day by day, week by week, year by fuckin year; and are not tempted with the same things that tempt me (and us). I read posts of people quit for YEARS that still battle the day-to-day temptations. I would love to not have this underlying addiction issue that I have to combat day-in and day-out.

I am in no way aspiring to be a YouTube vlogger. I would never publicize my life in that matter. It is simply something my SO enjoys to watch and it baffles me as to how truly sobering their lives are. Anywho,

I'm 21 with a pretty good situation on my hands. I'm in no relation to those who have wasted significant amount of time smoking trees (given ive smoked for 5-6 years).

The fact of the matter is that I want to fit in with the society who dos not bat an eye towards "addiction." I do not want to be classified, affiliating OR similar to those in which i am now. I am the type that makes NO EXCUSES when it comes to my business/work life. But when it comes to my social life, I have excuses of plenty to take a 6 pack to the face and smoke 3 joints before I go out at 10pm.

The comparison trap may be very beneficial to others but i usually do not self-depricate at the thought of what others are doing better than me (other than those who spend a saturday night at the gym then the sauna, then the bath with a book and a tea). We only got one shot in this life and the man in the mirror is my masterpiece.... he just tends to smoke his brain away, thats all. lol

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