I have been living mgtow since 22- just turned 36- I just realized I wasted my whole life

I want my life!

You already have it. You just don't like the way it works today. This is within your power to change.

make people see me

I see you. You are a fellow man. You are valuable. You have the capacity for both sadness and joy. And also a place in the middle, where you are not in pain and feel calm and content. There are ways to get to this state, but it is up to you to change your life. Even a little bit of change helps. These small changes add up and one day you will feel peace and happiness.

Do you like music? Playing with animals? Being outdoors? Go do some of that and see if you feel better.

You mention wanting to be with other people more, but the men around you focus on women. Have you tried being around men who don't? Perhaps a religious community?

Being in a group of men who focus on a team goal can be very exciting and rewarding. Perhaps you could join a volunteer organization and build things.

Or maybe working on a personal goal would give you more joy. Putting a financial plan in place to become moderately wealthy has been very exciting for me. /r/leanfire has been a great community to hang out with.

You mention being overweight. I am right there with you. In fact, I am morbidly obese. Once I started reading about the weight loss options available, I was able to come up with a plan to change this. /r/loseit /r/wls /r/gastricsleeve and /r/progresspics have been very useful. Once our bodies reach a certain state (BMI), it seems that the only reliable method of weight reduction for many is /r/wls. That's the route I'm taking. Saving up for that and the resulting skin reduction surgery have been exciting goals for me. Perhaps these methods would also work for you.

Don't give up and lash out. Instead, talk. Talk to me, if you like. PM me and tell me more about yourself. You are valuable. You can feel joy. Try something new.

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