Then do what you want to do, what makes you happy. If you like being lazy (like myself) then just find a silly stupid job that would pay you enough for a comfortable life and that won’t frustrate the hell out of you, a job that when you’re done for the day you’re actually done and don’t have to think about it until the next day, so that you can focus on the things that actually make you happy say binge watching tv shows or reading or whatever. I am also foreign and I did horrible in high school basically bc on middle school I didn’t learn crap bc the classes were taught by video cassette (3rd world country) and our head teacher was a pedo creep that thought too well of himself and would spend hours talking about his life instead of teaching us something, so when I got into high school I had no base. My high school math teacher told me once that I was smart but too lazy lol. I have gone through so many hobbies and interests but never stuck with one bc I would get bored eventually. I love singing in the shower, love reading, I like math but math hates me so there’s isn’t much I can do about it, I have an interest in computer related stuff and am quite agile in languages but I would never get good at either bc I get distracted easily specially since I have a toddler daughter and I have no moral support at home. But I still love myself, in the eyes of society I am a total failure sure ,but I don’t freaking care, I know I have my many faults, I am aware of them they bother me a lot and I am daily trying to better myself no matter how long that would take me, but I am doing it for myself and my daughter for hers and my pleasure and personal betterment not anyone else’s, society and my judgmental family can kiss my a** bc I will get there when I get there. I do paint for pleasure though, I am not that good and usually take forever to finish one piece but I enjoy it very much. I think you should stop trying to ace at everything and actually do things bc they make you feel better, I think most of INFPs or at least the turbulent ones have the same problem, “if what I do isn’t perfect then is not worth it “ if what you do brings you peace then it is worthy.