After commenting this, I tried to analyze more of my behaviors to see which ones are driven by mania, and I noticed I often get very hateful, irritable and straight up mean. Sometimes we forget that's also part of a mania, and those feelings have definitely caused some major problems in my life. Maybe this is the case for you too! But for sure, I guess we all have different manias according to our own self-control and self-awareness. I had a whole few months where I was CERTAIN I would eventually become a Dictator and control all the world for a better or even for my own pleasure and views of life. Sometimes we manage to keep our mania inside, but that is also pretty hurtful, especially after self shame and embarrasment come. I dont know if that made sense, or if it relates to you as well!