Me too man, I drink a bottle of vodka a day and take 10-15mg of etizolam per day. Been at it for fucking years

Dont get yourself to where I am. Life is a living hell when i'm sober. No doctors around to take care of me, I dont have any fucking insurance or medicaid. All I have is bottle shelf booze and my etizolam solution :)

It makes every hellish morning into something I can slowly and gradually smirk about and fade away into sleep every night :) for a good 4 hours

I hate my self and my life, my family is nearly gone ive no friends and the dogs on her way out. No job, hardly an education, "friends" i trusted. Im too fucking old and too fucking far gone

Dont let that benzo warmth take over your duties as a regular civilized human being.

You try and live this way forever, one morning your going to wake up and start to feel the fear, and if you dont recognize that the benzos are mostly causing it, you are going to be near where I am

BUT GOD DAMN IF YOU CAN KEEP YOUR USAGE SPORADIC YOU HAVE A PROMISING LIFE AHEAD OF YOU