Hmmmmm.... This is always a toughie. I recently went through some gender stuff (I'm demigender demiboy? I think?) and came out questioning my sexuality along with it, and realized I WAS attracted to men, but very similarly to you, I'm only attracted to men who are more in touch with their feminine side. That being said, men can be so horrible and manipulative and you should NEVER feel like you have to have a relationship with a man to be "allowed" to still be attracted to them. Personally, the personality of the person is by far the most important trait for me when it comes to romantic attraction. I don't have any answers and I don't want to make assumptions or anything because I'm nowhere near the same position you are. Keep dating women! And if a guy comes along that's not an asshole, that you're attracted to, and who treats you like a goddamn human being, and who makes you feel comfortable unlike the other men in your life, you can decide in that moment whether that's what you want. But you should never feel forced into a bad or even subpar relationship with a man because of het bs. I hope you're ok! I'm bad at words but have a great life!!!