Why was I born this way? I don’t want/like this kind of life. #theEverCryingInfp

My dad said something very harsh to me. And while I didn’t cry, I’ve been pretty sad these past two days. I was supposed to go somewhere with him and my brother, but I didn’t wake up. And so they did the work themselves. I woke up at 4pm so it is my fault for staying up all night. But when my dad came home he said that if I’m gonna live in this house, then I can’t just live however I want. And he’s right, I owe things to my family, it’s my responsibility to help them. But sometimes he just seems impossible to please. Reading this post almost made me sound like you were me. What he said was so small. Yet it’s still bothering me. And it’s like I’m good most of the time. But after like a few weeks or some amount of time, I always burst emotionally and just let out all this pain, not always from my parents, or even anything, sometimes I jsit feel shitty for no reason lol. Maybe cause I get hungry?

I can relate to the sadness, and the feeling that you have no one to tell. The overbearing emotion that almost stings your heart as tears rush to your eyes. I’ve wished that I could just stop feeling, cause I feel too much, too often.

I tell myself to try to appreciate what you have. Don’t let the pain and unhappiness that you feel make you sour about life. Everyone is going through pain, and we can get through it. I know religious talk probably pisses you off. But don’t let the way your parents or people in general follow and enforce religion ruin your image of what religion really is. The only respite I’ve ever found in life is knowing that God is with me. He’s created me and is the most Wise. And He is the only who really understands, and speaking to Him and seeking His help is the answer.

I’m sorry life is so tough. But the afterlife is better.

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