I broke myself, now I'm unreadable and misunderstood

I just have to say I relate to the OP a lot and to other redditors as well commenting. I was just about to get on and make a similar post. I'm at a point right now that I'm not as socially known or going out as much. I am on my pathway towards success, but I'm wondering if what I wanted was correct all along. I don't like the way most people view spending all their money and how they never have meaningful connections. Hell I typically don't even like most people. But I'm wondering now in my pursuit of success, if I will miss out on "stupid" social interactions. The meaningless parties and events with people I don't think are even worth my time.

I'm wondering if my ideaology and analysis on most humans crappy, boring, meaningless, lives was correct. That they need alcohol and these social gatherings to feel good about themselves and feel "fun". Don't get me wrong I partied a lot more in my early 20s but I'm just not understanding the appeal anymore. I understand to do something when it's novel/new but why do people keep doing it when it's a net negative for them(monetarily,time,etc).

I believe a proper ENTP sees the bs that is society and it's mechanisms to cage people in always. But now I'm wondering if im the one that's missing out on what I claimed as "meaningless or depthless " social interactions.

Are we just wrong ? I didn't mind being the different one as I know many of us here don't care. I'm wondering if thinking differently is actually the issue. I can't change myself even if I try to behave like others, so this answer wont change me even if I'm wrong. I just want to know though. Is the literature wrong? Like metamorphosis, 1984 , etc. I may never get a black/white answer but any hints would be great .

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