Update (also posted in comment below) -

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I waited 3 weeks, sent her a message saying that this silence is also an answer in itself and that I love her but this is goodbye.

She did write back a long text basically saying that 3 weeks is not enough time to resolve issues between us and that she was expecting that we owed it to ourselves to give eachother time, I`ve waited 2 years, 2 years of maybe of "I dont know" and basically blaming me for not waiting and breaking up with her(including the how hard this is for her) even going to the lengths of saying "I never sent you a Dear John letter but instead I left her many including this one, amazing to be honest considering even the last time we spoke she said she never wants to see me again and kicked me out of the house basically, and happened too many times to count in the past.

I thought that maybe now in the final hour she`ll own up to her actions and do something about it, instead she just placed guilt and blame on me again not owning up to anything it was basically all me again and she seems like the poor victim of a impatient man.

But it`s done now and even though I feel empty and sad that I had to make this decision finally I can only hope things get better in the future.