I have been thinking about, I've been dying for it. But i know myself and sadly i know her. We had fights and she always promised me she will change and treat me well and all that if i stay. So yeah i always went back to her. But the problem always came back... i know she have been through really hard times and i always wanted to be there for her and i always was. I think she started taking me for granted because of that. I just wanted to be appreciated and loved by her. I know she's not a bad person that's why i tried my best to keep her happy. But over time i felt like i wanted it more than her. I felt sorry for her because her life been shit. She had no steady point in her life other than me and of course the fucking weed she's been smoking everyday for 15 years. I offered her to go couple counselling so we can get better together, multiple times. But when it came to that we either had no money for it or she said she doesn't think it would work. I will reach to her, not even to get back together, just to talk it through so we can move on. I always thought if we break up we would stay friends but my family said it's not working out most of the time. But i just don't know who to believe anymore. I just don't wanna look like a mug in front of everyone.