Well it wasnt a post just asking for forgiveness but reaffirming to all believers(maybe a reminder) and given the fact that I couldnt hold this back from the body of Christ from joy of what I had just received: the doctrine that has been preached from the beginning---other than what I was preaching, while I was unregenerated---without having fully come to that knowledge which is: forgiveness of the whole worlds sins through the act of Christ alone, and that all have sinned and come short of the glory of God; in which we believe in His death, burial and resurrection to the manifold salvation of ALL who come to this knowledge.

This could also be a warning to those who, like me, thought that they tought the truth but in essence were denying the Lord Jesus that bought them(jude). This is scary indeed. Peter called these teachers, "uneshtablished souls".

Call me a prodigal if you want because I deserve it but if I stood here and wrote everything I've been through in the past 9 years before coming to this knowledge I could probably write 100 books(or more) on what I've seen and experienced. Of which, and I say this because it must be said, I was possessed for 1 hour, and I felt as the demons felt. Basically, even in my desperation, everything I said to God was sarcasm. In that hell, though only an hour by this world standards, was an infinity of time for the suffering that I felt.

In conclussion: I became a Chrisitan when I was 6 and am nearly 33. However, the last 9 years I have literally been to hell and back and I wont go into detail lest I puff myself up and take away from the glory which Christ deserves(or ALL of it).

I will say this: I have suffered more in the past 9 years than any Christian has suffered during this church age(if not the most). However, I have suffered both to bring glory to Gods name and to proclaim this doctrine. "His mercy endures forever"