Buried beneath life, struggling to know what I am living for.

I'm in a really similar situation, 17 credits, 40 hour work week, 45 minute commute, but minus a toddler, that sounds super tough. I really have to hit the caffeine hard and then take some alteril, a natural sleep aid mix you can buy from Walmart, to be able to have the energy and motivation to study and work hard and sleep at night. Sometimes I plan a day off or partial day off for myself and then work a bit extra in homework throughout the week so I can go fishing or whatever on Saturday or Sunday. If you like what your studying then you can try and get lost in your studies, the same with your work. It's important for me to have goals, not official goals I hate that, but something your working towards that you can think about when your not thinking about other things. Try and exercise, or lose weight, or make more money, or teach your kid the alphabet, teach him/her calculus, grow a beard, write essays about the church and post them on here. Read/listen to a book. Focus on making your wife's life easier. Or just watch tv, as long as your not neglecting your kid or your regular life maintenance there's nothing wrong with that. One thing about being out if the church is the freedom to fail at something or even to not do anything, without feeling guilty about it, at all. I feel most depressed when I have nothing to personally work towards. You feel like crap right now and that might not change, but it's important to know that it can, and most likely will. The church is gone from your life, but it doesn't mean that the meaning is too. This is all from my point of view, so disregard it if it doesn't apply to you. Where do you live? There's probably a community of exmos wherever you are too. Good luck

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