Came off my meds - oops

For me the manic highs held a lot of sort of hidden anxiety... like I had to keep moving as fast as my thoughts and ideas to stay in what i thought was happiness. I could never really rest in my thoughts or feelings or focus long enough to actually make solid progress on anything and eventually I’d crash. Getting clear on what I really value and enjoy spending my time and energy on gives me things to look forward to and feel like I’m growing in. Being on medication that keeps me stable has allowed me to pursue writing music in a way i could never quite get to before. I’m into swimming and stretching and taking care of myself. Getting into tea... board games.. trying to read more and stay open to new things. Being stable puts me in a spot to pursue all those things and still show up to work enough to support myself. I’m busy... but in a good way. It may have been an easier transition for me because as i got older it was a lot more depressive and mixed episodes than the highs. I wasn’t properly diagnosed till 31 earlier this year so I’m still pretty new being on the correct meds.. but that’s been my experience so far.

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