This is how I am in terms of thinking. And I tend to hate the higher status people immediately. Mostly because I view them ad these people sitting on a throne while everyone else is eating dirt cookies and they do nothing. Most people would assume it's financial jealousy but it honestly isn't. I have a really hard time feeling "love" for anyone but my son, my brother, and my best friend. Almost everyone else it's just blocked. Likely from trauma. I can go from being completely infatuated with someone to hating them with everything in my within seconds. I'm not diagnosed bpd, my shrink office is having issues with processing the tests or something -_-